Doubts

The idea of moving to Spain is all very exciting, but every now and again we also have doubts.

The most important reason for wanting to immigrate is because we want a better life for ourselves and Anna, and of course the nice weather is also a big bonus. But what if the life does not turn out to be so much better then now? Will we really have more time to enjoy family time? Will we be able to see more of Anna or will we be working too much to find the time to spend with her?

Maybe Anna will not like it in Spain and will she resent us for taking her away from grandparents, uncles, aunts and friends. How will we deal with that? Because she is so young she does not have a say in any of this. We are the ones who are deciding at this moment to persue a dream and she just has to accept it. Of course we dsicussed the fact that we will objectively have a look at our plan at the time that we will acutally decide if we are going to move or not, but how objective can one be when you've spend so much time on the preparations? Sometimes it feels as if we have already decided that we will move, even though we said not to make that decission until 2014.

Of course there are also doubts with regard to the financial side of this move. We have great jobs at the moment with good salaries and ample spare time (even though it doesn't always feel like that). Ellen works four days a week and her working days are relatively short, her last lessons finish at 15.15! JW's workingdays are quite a bit longer, but that also has to do with the time he needs to travel to get to and from work . Now we need to find out if a shorter time to travel, or rather no travel time at all, out ways all the doubts we have. I don't think we will be able to give a definite answer to that question. When we are in a positive mood we can't wait to move and are absolutely sure we can overcome anything that will hit us, but on other days, which are not so positive, we questions ourselves with every move we make. Are we persuing an illusion? Time will tell......